Well, Hello there 2015. It’s so nice to see you… or is it?
I wanted to sit down and write last night, but I wanted to truly think about what 2014 meant to me. There were lots of ups… and some downs. I had my Sadie girl. That was enough of an UP to last the rest of the year.
Other than that… I feel like 2014 was just ok. I don’t feel like I accomplished much. My kids are alive and healthy so that should count for something! I also never checked into a padded room (Thought about it, but didn’t). I guess you can count that as another accomplishment. BUT… I didn’t change the world. I didn’t get promoted, or organize my house, lose a million pounds, travel the world, or buy a new car. Nothing like that. It went by so fast. I had good intentions in 2014.
I have half of my Facebook posting news year’s resolutions and the other half making fun of the people who make resolutions. Truthfully…. I think resolutions are great. Making a goal for yourself in the New Year means you have hope. Hope is a good thing! Hope for change! Believing in yourself to make better decisions, achieve dreams, and be a better YOU. What can be so bad about that? I applaud you resolution makers! Sounds better than going into a new year being a Debbie Downer right?
So here I am… thinking about my resolutions. Thinking about what 2015 has in store for me. Where will I want to be in exactly ONE year?
For starters, this year means my husband will be leaving. For a long time. It sucks.
Then I think about all this time I will have by myself (Well, technically ZERO because of my 3 beautiful babies… but I mean without him to physically fall back on). I can work on me… At night… when hopefully my children will be sleeping. I can read. Get on the treadmill. Write. Craft. I will discover my own inner strength. Some women never find theirs. I will.
It will be an adventure. A lonely one, but still an amazing adventure. Only military spouses understand this. Or prison wives. (I admit it. I’ve watched it.)
I know you’re all on the edge of your seats for my resolutions. They are simple.
· Go back to school. Just one or two classes. Nothing crazy.
· Blog more. Write more. (I want to write it all down. My accomplishments and failures because I want to be able to show my kids proof. It’s NOT easy, and you can’t be perfect ALL the time or even some of the time. It’s such a heavy expectation to carry around with you all the time.)
· Put my phone down during the day.
· Teach Logan to tie his shoes.
· Play catch with Shepp. (Our dog… not one of the kids! Although, it sounds like a good idea.)
· Donate things we don’t need. (I have LOTS of crap. Not crappy things, just lots of stuff.)
· Do a total transformation from when my husband leaves and then returns. (This will be 2015 & 2016. There will be pictures at some point.)
· Spend more time teaching Kora things. (Maybe this will help with her destructive ways!)
· Soak up Sadie’s “Mommy ONLY” phase. (It won’t always be this way.)
· Watch one of Ellen’s shows live. (A girl can dream right?)
· Love myself.
· Oh, and make my bed at least once a week. (Why make it if you’re just going to mess it back up? I’ve never understood that concept.)
· Follow through on more things. (Give me a break… I already admitted I had good intentions, what more do you want?)
· Spend less. (I’m a terrible spender. Hence the reason for all our CRAP! Not trying to save for a new house or boat or car or vacation or something outrageous. Just simply spend less.)
I think that’s a good start. Not trying to end global warming, but trying to become a better person for my kids to grow up watching. I want them to have memories of me… like I have of my mom.
So, that’s it.
2015… Please be kind to me. It’s going to be a really, really hard year. I’m ready for the challenge though. Defying the odds.
