Hopes and Dreams.... Maybe Crushed?

Yesterday we got some heartbreaking news... His orders to CO got deleted. I'm not sure how long I cried that night. We had so many dreams for our next duty station.  Not to mention my WHOLE family was going to be living there. My mom and step-dad will be moving there this summer. Same with my aunt and cousin.  ALL my siblings live there. My nieces and nephew.

We were going to buy a house. 

We were going to have our 2nd child there.

We were actually going to be able to go on dates leaving our children with people we know and trust.

We had so many plans.

I know with the Army you can't make plans, but this seemed like for once things were going our way.  James was going to get a break. Not from deploying.... We are OK with that.  It is his job. At least I would be around family. And friends.

Well now... Our path has been unexpectedly changed.  In my words I would describe it as "Ripped from right under our feet."  I don't understand.

I can hear all the comments now "Well... That's the Army for you."  

Yes, I know it is.  Still doesn't make it hurt less.

I wanted to be by my family... after two years I really think this should be possible.

I still feel like there is some hope.  Maybe just a little.  I am going to Pray every day and night. As hard as I can.

When will there be light at the end of our tunnel?

We will see what the next few months holds for us.  I am going to remain hopeful.  And no matter where we go... I'll make the best of it with my husband, son and growing baby!