This House was built with L.O.V.E

From Memento:

"What was the house you grew up in like? How would you describe it? Was there a place in it that was special to you?"

Coming from a divorced home, I have many memories of several houses. My first home as a baby... I don't recall much.  I know my parents were still married, the curtains were horrible, and my parents got a divorce.  The memories I have, I only made because they were recored in video or my mom shared stories with me. I have pictures of me sleeping in a tent on top of my bed every night.  My mom told me how happy it made me, and was a simple pleasure. 

The next house I lived in until I was 7 or 8.  I have numerous memories of Frasier. I can still remember the next door neighbor kids... and the layout of the house vividly.  The backyard was HUGE and my sister and I shared a room down in the basement.  It was cool in the hot summers, and freezing in the winters. I have the most amazing birthday parties and battles with my siblings. I loved that house. Not because of the actual house, but it was the last time my brother and sister lived with us. 

My dad had adventourous homes.  I loved them because I didn't live there every day.  He let me ride the lawnmower for fun, built me a tire swing in an old tree, and lay on the roof to watch the clouds.  Not too sure if he was ever really supervising me. I would like to think so. I also remember getting to watch for foxes at night with him. I loved it. I had a secret room at his house on Willow Street. It was my craft room. Not any bigger than a closet. He even let my little brother and I draw on the walls. I would give anything to walk through that house right now... Just so I could remember him.....

With my mom... We lived in 7 houses from the time I was 1 to 18 years of age and moved from Colorado to Texas.  My favorite Texas home would be the one on Dogwood. Maybe it was because I was older and the memories were easier to keep. I know my room was exactly how I wanted it and I had the whole top floor to myself. No siblings to share it with, since they stayed in Colorado. When I would go to back to CO for the summers to visit my dad, she would always redo my room. What great memories! I would love coming home to my room being completely transformed.

Now as a Military Family... we keep moving. I really don't know what I'll do when someday we settle down and make ALL our memories in one house. That will truly be a blessing! I think I am at house number 17 at the age of 26. (Not including all the ones I lived in with my dad)

This House was built with L.O.V.E

From Memento:

"What was the house you grew up in like? How would you describe it? Was there a place in it that was special to you?"

Coming from a divorced home, I have many memories of several houses. My first home as a baby... I don't recall much.  I know my parents were still married, the curtains were horrible, and my parents got a divorce.  The memories I have, I only made because they were recored in video or my mom shared stories with me. I have pictures of me sleeping in a tent on top of my bed every night.  My mom told me how happy it made me, and was a simple pleasure. 

The next house I lived in until I was 7 or 8.  I have numerous memories of Frasier. I can still remember the next door neighbor kids... and the layout of the house vividly.  The backyard was HUGE and my sister and I shared a room down in the basement.  It was cool in the hot summers, and freezing in the winters. I have the most amazing birthday parties and battles with my siblings. I loved that house. Not because of the actual house, but it was the last time my brother and sister lived with us. 

My dad had adventourous homes.  I loved them because I didn't live there every day.  He let me ride the lawnmower for fun, built me a tire swing in an old tree, and lay on the roof to watch the clouds.  Not too sure if he was ever really supervising me. I would like to think so. I also remember getting to watch for foxes at night with him. I loved it. I had a secret room at his house on Willow Street. It was my craft room. Not any bigger than a closet. He even let my little brother and I draw on the walls. I would give anything to walk through that house right now... Just so I could remember him.....

With my mom... We lived in 7 houses from the time I was 1 to 18 years of age and moved from Colorado to Texas.  My favorite Texas home would be the one on Dogwood. Maybe it was because I was older and the memories were easier to keep. I know my room was exactly how I wanted it and I had the whole top floor to myself. No siblings to share it with, since they stayed in Colorado. When I would go to back to CO for the summers to visit my dad, she would always redo my room. What great memories! I would love coming home to my room being completely transformed.

Now as a Military Family... we keep moving. I really don't know what I'll do when someday we settle down and make ALL our memories in one house. That will truly be a blessing! I think I am at house number 17 at the age of 26. (Not including all the ones I lived in with my dad)

Momento

I love to write. Hands down... It is probably one of my favorite things to do.  For my 26th Birthday my husband got my this bright red book called "Memento."  It wasn't until now that I sat down and actaully read what it was about.  It is amazing. 

The forward talks about why and how the author came to start this book.  It wasn't until a phone call with his dad.  Later that night he got a call that his father had uexpectedly passed away from a heart attack (Sounds like my own personal story of losing my dad). Weeks after this death, him and the rest of his family were going through their father's belongings when he came across this worn journal.  He recoginized it, only because he gave it to his dad as a gift.  His dad had written all of his adventures astories,,,, wisdom and advice... successes and failures.  What an amazing thing to find after your parent passes away. 

From experience, when you lose a loved one... there are so many questions left unanswered.  There are stories you wish you would have asked.  There are jokes you wish you could remember.  There are times you wish you would have bottled their laugh. 

This book... builds a story of your life. It is meant to become an heirloom. It is meant to pass down the past to newer generations of your family.  So much of the past goes missing now. We are in such a hurry to discover new things, ways to do tasks faster... When does it stop? 

I know I don't blog often, even though it is a passion of mine. I think I have lost where my priorities lie. I am going to complete this book.  Not only for me, but for my husband, my son, my Neices and nephews. My future granchildren. For the future.

I hope you enjoy this journey I am about to begin.  I may write everyday. I may write once a week.  I will write though. I will share my stories, my successes and failures.

Here is to a new year! Love to all.

Momento

I love to write. Hands down... It is probably one of my favorite things to do.  For my 26th Birthday my husband got my this bright red book called "Memento."  It wasn't until now that I sat down and actaully read what it was about.  It is amazing. 

The forward talks about why and how the author came to start this book.  It wasn't until a phone call with his dad.  Later that night he got a call that his father had uexpectedly passed away from a heart attack (Sounds like my own personal story of losing my dad). Weeks after this death, him and the rest of his family were going through their father's belongings when he came across this worn journal.  He recoginized it, only because he gave it to his dad as a gift.  His dad had written all of his adventures astories,,,, wisdom and advice... successes and failures.  What an amazing thing to find after your parent passes away. 

From experience, when you lose a loved one... there are so many questions left unanswered.  There are stories you wish you would have asked.  There are jokes you wish you could remember.  There are times you wish you would have bottled their laugh. 

This book... builds a story of your life. It is meant to become an heirloom. It is meant to pass down the past to newer generations of your family.  So much of the past goes missing now. We are in such a hurry to discover new things, ways to do tasks faster... When does it stop? 

I know I don't blog often, even though it is a passion of mine. I think I have lost where my priorities lie. I am going to complete this book.  Not only for me, but for my husband, my son, my Neices and nephews. My future granchildren. For the future.

I hope you enjoy this journey I am about to begin.  I may write everyday. I may write once a week.  I will write though. I will share my stories, my successes and failures.

Here is to a new year! Love to all.

Reaching for the stars!

Sorry I haven't written in awhile... I can't seem to catch up with my life! I have so much on my plate that I haven't got to relax in a few weeks.  I have been going non-stop and staying up ALL hours of the night trying to catch up.  I am usually laying down when James is getting up for PT in the morning.  I REFUSE to let this break me... I refuse to not finish the things I started.  I can does this... I can complete everything I have going on... God willing.

As most of you know, I started a non-profit organization.  I have put every ounce of my heart and soul into this organization.  I feel like the hard work will eventually pay off and I am touching several people's lives.  This is it... I have found the path God has called me to take.  It is very exciting for me. So far I have over 40 wives and girlfriends enrolled in my program.  I never thought this would be such a big hit.  I get at least 5 ladies a week.  Here lately I have been getting 5 ladies a day! The only few hours I have left in my day to sleep will now have to be replaced with fundraising.  I just keep telling myself that all these ladies are worth it and even though I don't know them... I care about them so much and my heart goes out to them while they are experiencing this current deployment. 

I started making signs... This was actually before I started the non-profit... so you can't really call me crazy.  I have to fund this huge project somehow!!!  As of today.... I have 29 orders.  As I type... paint is drying!  :)  I love it though.  It is another way for me to add a little piece of my heart to other people's homes. 

For those of you who are wondering.... I am still a full-time student as well.  Classes are going great!  I am loving every minute of it.  I did however learn that there truly is a "Facebook Addiction" in one of my classes and people are starting to seek treatment.  I am not joking.  I read all the signs of a FB addiction... and surprisingly... I experience ALL signs! lol I guess I will remain in denial. 

Now on to Mr. Logan-  He is doing great! We are starting a more structure preschool atmosphere during the days.  Not as much free play.  I am designing my own curriculum for him.  He is really into arts and crafts right now!  He prefers waffles at every meal... he colors outside the lines... and he LOVES to drink water!  Tonight was the first time he sat on the potty!! Just for fun though.  I wanted to know that was what it is for! :) He is pretty much amazing if you ask me....

James is tired.  He works so hard.  I mean before the sun rises he is working... and doesn't stop until it has already set.  I wish he could relax for just one minute.  He is so good at what he does though.  I am so proud of all his accomplishments! He is pretty much a big deal! 

Across the world in Korea-  This place is still exciting.  I love it here.  My mom got to come visit.  I LOVED her being here.  It was harder to say goodbye this time.  It hurts my heart to know we won't get to see her again for at least a year.  I have never been apart from her... in 26 years... she has always been down the street.  I thought it was fitting to get "Alis Volat Propiis" tattooed over my butterfly before I left.  It means "She flies with her own wings."  I am certain on one thing... I moved out of my comfort zone and faced the world.  I am loving this journey God has sent me on. 

My new plan is to Blog every Thursday.  That way people know when to tune in and read.  I have amazing things happening in my life right now... and I am so blessed to be able to share it with all of you.  Thank you for reading :) 

Quote of the Week:
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." -unknown

Reaching for the stars!

Sorry I haven't written in awhile... I can't seem to catch up with my life! I have so much on my plate that I haven't got to relax in a few weeks.  I have been going non-stop and staying up ALL hours of the night trying to catch up.  I am usually laying down when James is getting up for PT in the morning.  I REFUSE to let this break me... I refuse to not finish the things I started.  I can does this... I can complete everything I have going on... God willing.

As most of you know, I started a non-profit organization.  I have put every ounce of my heart and soul into this organization.  I feel like the hard work will eventually pay off and I am touching several people's lives.  This is it... I have found the path God has called me to take.  It is very exciting for me. So far I have over 40 wives and girlfriends enrolled in my program.  I never thought this would be such a big hit.  I get at least 5 ladies a week.  Here lately I have been getting 5 ladies a day! The only few hours I have left in my day to sleep will now have to be replaced with fundraising.  I just keep telling myself that all these ladies are worth it and even though I don't know them... I care about them so much and my heart goes out to them while they are experiencing this current deployment. 

I started making signs... This was actually before I started the non-profit... so you can't really call me crazy.  I have to fund this huge project somehow!!!  As of today.... I have 29 orders.  As I type... paint is drying!  :)  I love it though.  It is another way for me to add a little piece of my heart to other people's homes. 

For those of you who are wondering.... I am still a full-time student as well.  Classes are going great!  I am loving every minute of it.  I did however learn that there truly is a "Facebook Addiction" in one of my classes and people are starting to seek treatment.  I am not joking.  I read all the signs of a FB addiction... and surprisingly... I experience ALL signs! lol I guess I will remain in denial. 

Now on to Mr. Logan-  He is doing great! We are starting a more structure preschool atmosphere during the days.  Not as much free play.  I am designing my own curriculum for him.  He is really into arts and crafts right now!  He prefers waffles at every meal... he colors outside the lines... and he LOVES to drink water!  Tonight was the first time he sat on the potty!! Just for fun though.  I wanted to know that was what it is for! :) He is pretty much amazing if you ask me....

James is tired.  He works so hard.  I mean before the sun rises he is working... and doesn't stop until it has already set.  I wish he could relax for just one minute.  He is so good at what he does though.  I am so proud of all his accomplishments! He is pretty much a big deal! 

Across the world in Korea-  This place is still exciting.  I love it here.  My mom got to come visit.  I LOVED her being here.  It was harder to say goodbye this time.  It hurts my heart to know we won't get to see her again for at least a year.  I have never been apart from her... in 26 years... she has always been down the street.  I thought it was fitting to get "Alis Volat Propiis" tattooed over my butterfly before I left.  It means "She flies with her own wings."  I am certain on one thing... I moved out of my comfort zone and faced the world.  I am loving this journey God has sent me on. 

My new plan is to Blog every Thursday.  That way people know when to tune in and read.  I have amazing things happening in my life right now... and I am so blessed to be able to share it with all of you.  Thank you for reading :) 

Quote of the Week:
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." -unknown

Keeping My Faith in Korea

Keeping My Faith in Korea


The day has finally came...my first published article! God is so amazing, and I am truly blessed with everyday he gives me. I seriously couldn't be happier. I thought about writing a full blog today, but I will give it a rest since everyone is reading my article! :) It's on tomorrow though! Thank you for all the love and support! I couldn't have done it without everyone that is apart of my life!

One last thing to remember....
"It doesn't matter where you are in your live, God has a plan for you... just as he does for me. Go out and use the talents he gave you. Be a positive role model to the people around you... And most importantly, Love one another." Me :)

Keeping My Faith in Korea

Keeping My Faith in Korea


The day has finally came...my first published article! God is so amazing, and I am truly blessed with everyday he gives me. I seriously couldn't be happier. I thought about writing a full blog today, but I will give it a rest since everyone is reading my article! :) It's on tomorrow though! Thank you for all the love and support! I couldn't have done it without everyone that is apart of my life!

One last thing to remember....
"It doesn't matter where you are in your live, God has a plan for you... just as he does for me. Go out and use the talents he gave you. Be a positive role model to the people around you... And most importantly, Love one another." Me :)

Doors Keep Opening Up

As most of you know, I have recently had some exciting news in the writing department.  I was given the opportunity to write monthly articles for "Wives in Bloom" (an online magazine) and also the website http://www.faithdeployed.com/ .  I also was asked to join "The Veteran's Day Blog Tour 2010", which will be giving me lots of exposure! I am so excited for all these new doors that have opened for me! Writing has always been one of those things for me... to help clear me head, share my feelings, document my journeys.  I never thought I would be sharing my experiences with an audience bigger than me! I am looking forward to sharing my words with all my followers. Who knows where this yellow brick road may take us!

Another HUGE door that opened for me is friendships.  I have truly met my match here in Korea. Who would have ever thought distance would bring people together. Living the military lifestyle makes for different relationships and friendships. You learn to go with the flow and love while you can!  I am looking forward to the bittersweet two years this foreign country has to offer me.  Distance is beginning to get a little harder, but I am thankful for everyday that i get to spend here in this exotic land I call home.  

The count down begins today... only 21 more days until all our HHG (household goods) get here. I can NOT wait to make this empty apartment feel like a home! Although it feels like home already, having out stuff from the states will only make it 10 times better. 

The Fall semester is approaching pretty fast.  Hopefully I will have the dedication and willpower to prioritize my time better than I have in the past.  Buying textbooks is the worst part... $300 later, I am prepared for all my academic studies.  For a moment there, I thought I was going to take a break... but I finally decided that would only hurt me in the long run.  Fast pace is what I need to succeed and defiantly what I am comfortable with.

Life is exactly how I want it to be.  God has never left me alone on this journey, and that I can't be more grateful. He has always showed me the way, in one way or another.

Doors Keep Opening Up

As most of you know, I have recently had some exciting news in the writing department.  I was given the opportunity to write monthly articles for "Wives in Bloom" (an online magazine) and also the website http://www.faithdeployed.com/ .  I also was asked to join "The Veteran's Day Blog Tour 2010", which will be giving me lots of exposure! I am so excited for all these new doors that have opened for me! Writing has always been one of those things for me... to help clear me head, share my feelings, document my journeys.  I never thought I would be sharing my experiences with an audience bigger than me! I am looking forward to sharing my words with all my followers. Who knows where this yellow brick road may take us!

Another HUGE door that opened for me is friendships.  I have truly met my match here in Korea. Who would have ever thought distance would bring people together. Living the military lifestyle makes for different relationships and friendships. You learn to go with the flow and love while you can!  I am looking forward to the bittersweet two years this foreign country has to offer me.  Distance is beginning to get a little harder, but I am thankful for everyday that i get to spend here in this exotic land I call home.  

The count down begins today... only 21 more days until all our HHG (household goods) get here. I can NOT wait to make this empty apartment feel like a home! Although it feels like home already, having out stuff from the states will only make it 10 times better. 

The Fall semester is approaching pretty fast.  Hopefully I will have the dedication and willpower to prioritize my time better than I have in the past.  Buying textbooks is the worst part... $300 later, I am prepared for all my academic studies.  For a moment there, I thought I was going to take a break... but I finally decided that would only hurt me in the long run.  Fast pace is what I need to succeed and defiantly what I am comfortable with.

Life is exactly how I want it to be.  God has never left me alone on this journey, and that I can't be more grateful. He has always showed me the way, in one way or another.

Moved Again... But the wait continues....

Finally got moved in.  I kept saying to my self once I move into the new apartment I am going to get out of the house everyday! I did escape from my homebody tendencies once or twice this week!  The apartment is awesome! So much better than the first place we moved into.  I love this... and it is already starting to feel like home! Our stuff won't be here until September 13th.  Seems like so far away from now. Just more waiting... Soon this house will be turned into our home. It will be like Christmas when everything gets here.

Speaking of waiting... I feel like I wait around a lot.  I wait for my deadlines with school... I wait for Logan to get up from nap so I can run errands... I'm always waiting for James to come home... waiting on the water to warm up before I hop in the shower... Wait for the clothes to dry... Or waiting for the storm to pass.  I think I need to stop waiting and just get the heck out! I feel guilty going out and doing things without James, because that has been our thing the whole time we have been together.  We do everything together!  I hate to get out and explore Korea without him, but then again they keep him very busy at work! It's not his fault, and I know he would rather be going out exploring with Logan and I... but it doesn't work like that here. 

The one way to not get cabin fever or homesick is to get and and make the time spent in this new country count.  I love it here, no complaints from me! I just need to get out and about more.  Logan is at the age where it's a little tough.  The public temper tantrums aren't really my thing. I am trying my best to get him to understand, or maybe even listen a little, but he is not having it.  It makes for a very long train ride... or day! He just wants to test his boundaires I guess... over and over and over and over. This is one tired momma! Now that we are finally settled... after over a year of stressful moves, and stays... I am hoping I can start getting our lives back on track.

It felt good to just take a deep breath tonight. To close my eyes and lay my head back... and breathe.  Every situation is what you make of it. I am the only person who can make me happy.  :) Logan and James help, but the ending factor is me.  I am happy. This part in my life, I couldn't been happier.  It feels so good to know that I made the best choice for my family... and for me. 

"It's not about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about getting out and dancing in the rain."

Tomorrow... I am going to not sit at home.  I am going to fly on the wings of adventure. See where my journey leads me.  I will write again tomorrow.

Moved Again... But the wait continues....

Finally got moved in.  I kept saying to my self once I move into the new apartment I am going to get out of the house everyday! I did escape from my homebody tendencies once or twice this week!  The apartment is awesome! So much better than the first place we moved into.  I love this... and it is already starting to feel like home! Our stuff won't be here until September 13th.  Seems like so far away from now. Just more waiting... Soon this house will be turned into our home. It will be like Christmas when everything gets here.

Speaking of waiting... I feel like I wait around a lot.  I wait for my deadlines with school... I wait for Logan to get up from nap so I can run errands... I'm always waiting for James to come home... waiting on the water to warm up before I hop in the shower... Wait for the clothes to dry... Or waiting for the storm to pass.  I think I need to stop waiting and just get the heck out! I feel guilty going out and doing things without James, because that has been our thing the whole time we have been together.  We do everything together!  I hate to get out and explore Korea without him, but then again they keep him very busy at work! It's not his fault, and I know he would rather be going out exploring with Logan and I... but it doesn't work like that here. 

The one way to not get cabin fever or homesick is to get and and make the time spent in this new country count.  I love it here, no complaints from me! I just need to get out and about more.  Logan is at the age where it's a little tough.  The public temper tantrums aren't really my thing. I am trying my best to get him to understand, or maybe even listen a little, but he is not having it.  It makes for a very long train ride... or day! He just wants to test his boundaires I guess... over and over and over and over. This is one tired momma! Now that we are finally settled... after over a year of stressful moves, and stays... I am hoping I can start getting our lives back on track.

It felt good to just take a deep breath tonight. To close my eyes and lay my head back... and breathe.  Every situation is what you make of it. I am the only person who can make me happy.  :) Logan and James help, but the ending factor is me.  I am happy. This part in my life, I couldn't been happier.  It feels so good to know that I made the best choice for my family... and for me. 

"It's not about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about getting out and dancing in the rain."

Tomorrow... I am going to not sit at home.  I am going to fly on the wings of adventure. See where my journey leads me.  I will write again tomorrow.

Monsoon Season... Rain Rain is a Pain...

Hey that rhymed!  Actually monsoon season hasn't been too bad! I kind of am enjoying it! Plus I am saving lots of money since I am not going out to shop! Getting to shop is exciting... but getting to shop during a monsoon is NOT exciting.  I really need some rainboots. I looked online, but I haven't pulled the trigger yet.  I found some today while I was out and about with some friends and they all have heels on them! Seriously? You need to have a heel on your rainboot? Not to mention my shoe size here is about a 480. :)  I really don't know my shoe size here yet... All I know is my son's is a 140. Crazy aka "Beechon" in Korean! 

Missing James... of course.  Bought Logan a fish today and a very nice fish tank to match his room.  We named his fish Monsoon :) Well I did, he didn't have a say in the name picking process.  Two weeks until we get to move into our new apartment.  I can't wait. I go on the 26th to get the inspection done, so it will begin to feel real then.  I love this house, and it was great to start our adventure off with, but I will be so much happier at Viva.  I think our whole family will be happier... Parks for Logan to play, including a water park, All the friends that I made are around that area, not to mention it is way closer to base. It is also much bigger!  Oh, and did I mention a dishwasher.  My poor poor  hands... all this hard labor! James would laugh if he read that!

I am back to staying up all night. I guess I really can't sleep without him.  It is 4:22 am here in Korea. I worked a few hours on my homework, and now I am clearing my mind before bed.  I also wanted to share the news that I am trying to get a wrotong gig for a magazine.  The only I would LOVE to write for is Military Spouse Magazine.  I emailed them, which I am sure everyone does... And guess what I did... Yep, you gessed right... Forgot to spellcheck my email before I sent it!! Can you believe it? (Well I can!) They say patience is a virtue. We shall see if I get a response. If not... then i will keep trying. My good friend Dori (yeah the fish) said "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming... What do we do???  Keep swimming!" I will keep trying, if you didn't pick up on that! Plus with the 10 day forecast saying rain everyday... I thought swimming would be more appropiate. 

Goodnight Everyone! I hope this week is Blessed, and you love the one you're with!

Monsoon Season... Rain Rain is a Pain...

Hey that rhymed!  Actually monsoon season hasn't been too bad! I kind of am enjoying it! Plus I am saving lots of money since I am not going out to shop! Getting to shop is exciting... but getting to shop during a monsoon is NOT exciting.  I really need some rainboots. I looked online, but I haven't pulled the trigger yet.  I found some today while I was out and about with some friends and they all have heels on them! Seriously? You need to have a heel on your rainboot? Not to mention my shoe size here is about a 480. :)  I really don't know my shoe size here yet... All I know is my son's is a 140. Crazy aka "Beechon" in Korean! 

Missing James... of course.  Bought Logan a fish today and a very nice fish tank to match his room.  We named his fish Monsoon :) Well I did, he didn't have a say in the name picking process.  Two weeks until we get to move into our new apartment.  I can't wait. I go on the 26th to get the inspection done, so it will begin to feel real then.  I love this house, and it was great to start our adventure off with, but I will be so much happier at Viva.  I think our whole family will be happier... Parks for Logan to play, including a water park, All the friends that I made are around that area, not to mention it is way closer to base. It is also much bigger!  Oh, and did I mention a dishwasher.  My poor poor  hands... all this hard labor! James would laugh if he read that!

I am back to staying up all night. I guess I really can't sleep without him.  It is 4:22 am here in Korea. I worked a few hours on my homework, and now I am clearing my mind before bed.  I also wanted to share the news that I am trying to get a wrotong gig for a magazine.  The only I would LOVE to write for is Military Spouse Magazine.  I emailed them, which I am sure everyone does... And guess what I did... Yep, you gessed right... Forgot to spellcheck my email before I sent it!! Can you believe it? (Well I can!) They say patience is a virtue. We shall see if I get a response. If not... then i will keep trying. My good friend Dori (yeah the fish) said "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming... What do we do???  Keep swimming!" I will keep trying, if you didn't pick up on that! Plus with the 10 day forecast saying rain everyday... I thought swimming would be more appropiate. 

Goodnight Everyone! I hope this week is Blessed, and you love the one you're with!

Goodbyes Never Get Easier.

Well I have been in Korea for a little over 3 weeks now... And things have gotten a little easier for me. I understand the taxi's (as long as they under stand me) and I know how to buy a ticket for the subway... still haven't taken a bus yet... all in all I know I can survive.  James left today. He is will be in the field for a month. No matter how many times you say goodbye, it never gets easier. Still makes me tear up at the thought of being on my own. I depend on him so much. His love and friendship.... I know that no matter what comes my way i can get through it with him by my side... I guess this is a test of strength. If I can survive in Korea for a month, I can survive anywhere! (hopefully)  We love our house, but decided to move into an apartment. We will be closer to base, and closer to other wives. (More Americans too)  I move on the 1st of August.  He will be gone, but there isn't that much to move so that's a good thing. I think it truly hit me tonight that I am gone from my comfort zone back in TX.  That my friends that I have there will eventually move on with their lives. Distance is tough... I know this. It is tough on everyone. And so much changes in two years.

Logan is doing great. He is adjusting very well.  I REALLY need to find him a play group so he can start talking. Before I left TX the peditrician tried to tell me I needed to get his hearing  checked since he wasn't talking yet. I really don't think that's it. i think it is the life he has lived so far... He has been moved around and kept in a room with me all day long. He hasn't got to interact with very many kids, or go to his own room to pick out a toy.  He doesn't have much here yet, but he sure does love going into his room.  I can't wait until our HHG (household goods - for non military people) gets here. I can finally put our house back together... and it will stay put for atleast two years. That is a breathe of fresh air!

Tonight my heart is lonely. Tomorrow brings a new days though, and a new adventure. It also means we are one day closer to our new home, and James coming home again.

Bless the people who serve our country, and bless the loved ones who wait patiently for their return!

Goodbyes Never Get Easier.

Well I have been in Korea for a little over 3 weeks now... And things have gotten a little easier for me. I understand the taxi's (as long as they under stand me) and I know how to buy a ticket for the subway... still haven't taken a bus yet... all in all I know I can survive.  James left today. He is will be in the field for a month. No matter how many times you say goodbye, it never gets easier. Still makes me tear up at the thought of being on my own. I depend on him so much. His love and friendship.... I know that no matter what comes my way i can get through it with him by my side... I guess this is a test of strength. If I can survive in Korea for a month, I can survive anywhere! (hopefully)  We love our house, but decided to move into an apartment. We will be closer to base, and closer to other wives. (More Americans too)  I move on the 1st of August.  He will be gone, but there isn't that much to move so that's a good thing. I think it truly hit me tonight that I am gone from my comfort zone back in TX.  That my friends that I have there will eventually move on with their lives. Distance is tough... I know this. It is tough on everyone. And so much changes in two years.

Logan is doing great. He is adjusting very well.  I REALLY need to find him a play group so he can start talking. Before I left TX the peditrician tried to tell me I needed to get his hearing  checked since he wasn't talking yet. I really don't think that's it. i think it is the life he has lived so far... He has been moved around and kept in a room with me all day long. He hasn't got to interact with very many kids, or go to his own room to pick out a toy.  He doesn't have much here yet, but he sure does love going into his room.  I can't wait until our HHG (household goods - for non military people) gets here. I can finally put our house back together... and it will stay put for atleast two years. That is a breathe of fresh air!

Tonight my heart is lonely. Tomorrow brings a new days though, and a new adventure. It also means we are one day closer to our new home, and James coming home again.

Bless the people who serve our country, and bless the loved ones who wait patiently for their return!

A letter from the other side of the world

I can't believe it has taken me so long to update everyone on the move! The travel was long. When we finally reached customs 28 hours later... I wasn't sure I could handle anymore. Not to mention the line to get our passports stamped was extremely long for foreigners, Logan had hit his limit of patience and was crying... And the lady behind the counter was being hesitant to let us in because we didn't have our visas yet. (We can be in country for 90 days before we need to obtain a visa) After about 10 minutes she finally stamped our passports with an admitted stamp until Sept 19th :) Woo Hoo!!! We are in!! Next baggage and then finally I got to see my hubby! After a 2 hour taxi ride that cost us $250 (YIKES) we arrived at our new home at 6am Korea time.

Well... Korea is different. :) There isn't any english anywhere! The taxi drivers ... don't know how to drive. The food is waaay different! I haven't got to try much, and truthfully I am excited to try more. I have been here a little over a week, but James has been working so much. I guess more work comes with more success. He is doing such an awesome job though. Hopefully this weekend I will have more adventures to tell you about. So far our only adventure has been our landlord. She is very friendly... and by that i mean always here. At least she can translate for us! Logan is doing good. He has to sleep with us right now because he doesn't have a bed. Our landlord said to just get him a mat to sleep on. Umm... that would be a negative. A- he wouldn't stay on it... And B- I wouldn't want to sleep on the hard floor, so I am not making my child do that either.

Crazy to think it is Tuesday here and Monday back in the states. We may... again I say may... be moving into an apt soon. They are more suited for Americans. I think I would enjoy it a lot more being close to post and by other wives. James is about to go into the field for over a month, so it would be nice to have some friends to hangout with and for other kiddos to play with Logan. We shall see what this week holds for us. Anywho, I have lots of homework to keep my day going. Plus I need to put in a movie for Logan so he doesn't have to watch cartoons in a different language :)

I missed blogging... I hope you all miss reading...

A letter from the other side of the world

I can't believe it has taken me so long to update everyone on the move! The travel was long. When we finally reached customs 28 hours later... I wasn't sure I could handle anymore. Not to mention the line to get our passports stamped was extremely long for foreigners, Logan had hit his limit of patience and was crying... And the lady behind the counter was being hesitant to let us in because we didn't have our visas yet. (We can be in country for 90 days before we need to obtain a visa) After about 10 minutes she finally stamped our passports with an admitted stamp until Sept 19th :) Woo Hoo!!! We are in!! Next baggage and then finally I got to see my hubby! After a 2 hour taxi ride that cost us $250 (YIKES) we arrived at our new home at 6am Korea time.

Well... Korea is different. :) There isn't any english anywhere! The taxi drivers ... don't know how to drive. The food is waaay different! I haven't got to try much, and truthfully I am excited to try more. I have been here a little over a week, but James has been working so much. I guess more work comes with more success. He is doing such an awesome job though. Hopefully this weekend I will have more adventures to tell you about. So far our only adventure has been our landlord. She is very friendly... and by that i mean always here. At least she can translate for us! Logan is doing good. He has to sleep with us right now because he doesn't have a bed. Our landlord said to just get him a mat to sleep on. Umm... that would be a negative. A- he wouldn't stay on it... And B- I wouldn't want to sleep on the hard floor, so I am not making my child do that either.

Crazy to think it is Tuesday here and Monday back in the states. We may... again I say may... be moving into an apt soon. They are more suited for Americans. I think I would enjoy it a lot more being close to post and by other wives. James is about to go into the field for over a month, so it would be nice to have some friends to hangout with and for other kiddos to play with Logan. We shall see what this week holds for us. Anywho, I have lots of homework to keep my day going. Plus I need to put in a movie for Logan so he doesn't have to watch cartoons in a different language :)

I missed blogging... I hope you all miss reading...

Hoping for something

I have finally decided I refuse to look at a calendar anymore. All I know is my husband has been gone for 19 days... and I miss him so much. I know it is nothing compared to a deployment, but when we said goodbye at the airport it was a total of 20 seconds. That's it! We thought we were going to see eachother in days. And now it will be a month at the least, until I see him again. Maybe longer. He is doing his best over there. I know he is. If it was up to him I would have been sitting right next to him on the plane. He got us a house... and is trying to get it ready for our arrival. I have an amazing husband. He makes my heart feel so good when he tells me everything will be ok. I believe him. We all have our battles we must fight to get to the victory. I think that is where we are at. Almost to the victory. And what a sweet, sweet feeling that is.

On another note... after my last blog I got a nasty email. Got called a few names. The usual. Sorry if I offended anyone. AGAIN, let me just say this is my blog. I will express my opinions, my hopes, my dreams, my thoughts, and my dirty laundry if I feel moved to. If you don't want me to be honest about the way I feel, then please don't make me feel that way. Sounds pretty easy. The only person I need to report to is my husband. However I do take all complaints and compliments to heart so I did waste a few more tears on your unappreciated email.

Next case of business... I am watching Dear John... I'm not sure I should be watching these types of movies by myself without my hubby!!! But NO ONE would go see this movie with me in the theatre, so I have no choice. Anywho, just wanted to write about the way I was feeling today. Please don't ask me anymore when I am leaving. I don't know... The second I have a plane ticket I will be letting everyone know. :) The waiting part is the hardest part, but at least I have something to wait for. I will always wait for my husband. And he makes everything worth the wait. Goodnight my friends.

Hoping for something

I have finally decided I refuse to look at a calendar anymore. All I know is my husband has been gone for 19 days... and I miss him so much. I know it is nothing compared to a deployment, but when we said goodbye at the airport it was a total of 20 seconds. That's it! We thought we were going to see eachother in days. And now it will be a month at the least, until I see him again. Maybe longer. He is doing his best over there. I know he is. If it was up to him I would have been sitting right next to him on the plane. He got us a house... and is trying to get it ready for our arrival. I have an amazing husband. He makes my heart feel so good when he tells me everything will be ok. I believe him. We all have our battles we must fight to get to the victory. I think that is where we are at. Almost to the victory. And what a sweet, sweet feeling that is.

On another note... after my last blog I got a nasty email. Got called a few names. The usual. Sorry if I offended anyone. AGAIN, let me just say this is my blog. I will express my opinions, my hopes, my dreams, my thoughts, and my dirty laundry if I feel moved to. If you don't want me to be honest about the way I feel, then please don't make me feel that way. Sounds pretty easy. The only person I need to report to is my husband. However I do take all complaints and compliments to heart so I did waste a few more tears on your unappreciated email.

Next case of business... I am watching Dear John... I'm not sure I should be watching these types of movies by myself without my hubby!!! But NO ONE would go see this movie with me in the theatre, so I have no choice. Anywho, just wanted to write about the way I was feeling today. Please don't ask me anymore when I am leaving. I don't know... The second I have a plane ticket I will be letting everyone know. :) The waiting part is the hardest part, but at least I have something to wait for. I will always wait for my husband. And he makes everything worth the wait. Goodnight my friends.

Another Day in the life of ME!!!!

Up... down... up... down... my emotions were starting to get the best of me... BUT I am the only one in control of them, so I decided to make a change. I have been stressed about a few things... nothing major... when am I leaving the only life I've known to a foreign one... losing the last 10 pounds I want to lose to meet my goal... seeing my husband again... :) Insecurities arise when anything unplanned happens, or any change to your normal routine takes place, they recently got me. It starts with something tiny and turns into something that can keep you up at night. I think it had me upset for a good day and a half. I didn't like it at all. The only person that can make me feel differently is again, myself. So how does this happen? How do you change a habit that you have taken part in your whole entire life? All I know is that people can change. And if you want something bad enough, it is possible. So waking up smiling, losing those last 10 pounds, and making my husband feel like he deserves are the goals I am setting for myself. All are possible, and all will take a lifetime. Not a simple fix... If it's simple, then it isn't the kind of fix I am looking for. No-sir-ee!

Positive way to start your day tomorrow... Just a thought:
Reaching out to support our friends and loved ones strengthens the platform of happiness.

"This is my wish for you: comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life." - Author unknown.

This should be a week of answers for me... Let it begin!

Another Day in the life of ME!!!!

Up... down... up... down... my emotions were starting to get the best of me... BUT I am the only one in control of them, so I decided to make a change. I have been stressed about a few things... nothing major... when am I leaving the only life I've known to a foreign one... losing the last 10 pounds I want to lose to meet my goal... seeing my husband again... :) Insecurities arise when anything unplanned happens, or any change to your normal routine takes place, they recently got me. It starts with something tiny and turns into something that can keep you up at night. I think it had me upset for a good day and a half. I didn't like it at all. The only person that can make me feel differently is again, myself. So how does this happen? How do you change a habit that you have taken part in your whole entire life? All I know is that people can change. And if you want something bad enough, it is possible. So waking up smiling, losing those last 10 pounds, and making my husband feel like he deserves are the goals I am setting for myself. All are possible, and all will take a lifetime. Not a simple fix... If it's simple, then it isn't the kind of fix I am looking for. No-sir-ee!

Positive way to start your day tomorrow... Just a thought:
Reaching out to support our friends and loved ones strengthens the platform of happiness.

"This is my wish for you: comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life." - Author unknown.

This should be a week of answers for me... Let it begin!

Let's just call this day one.

So my hubby is gone. I hate that you can't walk people to their gates anymore. I got about 20 seconds to say bye to him. I stayed strong... but cried the whole way home. I guess it didn't help that I turned the radio on only to hear "Wish you were here" by Mark Willis. Not a good one when you just said goodbye to the person you love. We had to leave the house at 4 am... So we both were soooo tired. Had so much to do the previous days.

Transportation agreed to come on Saturday. They got all our stuff that we weren't taking to Korea. It's a little sad storing all your pictures and items you saw in your house on a daily basis. But, at the same time it is making room for new adventures and items collected along the way. I guess my emotions are so mixed up. I want to wear the biggest smile I can, but at the same time I could cry a million tears. I just want this stress to be over with. Tomorrow I have a lot to do. We need to go get our Visa pictures done. And I need to do sooo much homework. Still have about 10 boxes left to pack... and tons of crap to get rid of.

Things are slowly coming together though. It is hard for me to talk about leaving with my mom now... makes us both choke up. I can't believe after almost 26 years... Our paths are separating. (Take a deep breath...) I really wanted to be able to go with James so I could hide away in his comfort. I don't know how strong I will be when I finally get to go. I don't know if I can hold it together for my mom... You know "Momma Tears" are way different then any other kind. It doesn't matter how strong you are, when you hear your mom's voice... tears immediately fall. Logan has been very sick the past few days and everyday I have turned to her for help. Man... I think I am making myself a little sad. Next Topic...

Twenty more minutes and James should be landing in Korea. Crazy that he has been traveling ALL day. Man I miss him!!! I guess this is a case of taking advantage of our time together. Any who... I am going to bed. I need to get some sleep. I have a lot on the agenda tomorrow. Goodnight my friends. Until tomorrow... :)

Let's just call this day one.

So my hubby is gone. I hate that you can't walk people to their gates anymore. I got about 20 seconds to say bye to him. I stayed strong... but cried the whole way home. I guess it didn't help that I turned the radio on only to hear "Wish you were here" by Mark Willis. Not a good one when you just said goodbye to the person you love. We had to leave the house at 4 am... So we both were soooo tired. Had so much to do the previous days.

Transportation agreed to come on Saturday. They got all our stuff that we weren't taking to Korea. It's a little sad storing all your pictures and items you saw in your house on a daily basis. But, at the same time it is making room for new adventures and items collected along the way. I guess my emotions are so mixed up. I want to wear the biggest smile I can, but at the same time I could cry a million tears. I just want this stress to be over with. Tomorrow I have a lot to do. We need to go get our Visa pictures done. And I need to do sooo much homework. Still have about 10 boxes left to pack... and tons of crap to get rid of.

Things are slowly coming together though. It is hard for me to talk about leaving with my mom now... makes us both choke up. I can't believe after almost 26 years... Our paths are separating. (Take a deep breath...) I really wanted to be able to go with James so I could hide away in his comfort. I don't know how strong I will be when I finally get to go. I don't know if I can hold it together for my mom... You know "Momma Tears" are way different then any other kind. It doesn't matter how strong you are, when you hear your mom's voice... tears immediately fall. Logan has been very sick the past few days and everyday I have turned to her for help. Man... I think I am making myself a little sad. Next Topic...

Twenty more minutes and James should be landing in Korea. Crazy that he has been traveling ALL day. Man I miss him!!! I guess this is a case of taking advantage of our time together. Any who... I am going to bed. I need to get some sleep. I have a lot on the agenda tomorrow. Goodnight my friends. Until tomorrow... :)

Lovin' me some sunshine!

What a wonderful Sunday! I got to spend time with my girlfriends at Amanda's "Summer Kickoff" party... Logan got to get in his new lil pool his grandma got him... James and I both got homework done... We also got an email from the Comannder in Korea stating why it was better for Logan and I to come over after James. That's all we wanted... is an answer to our questions and we got them. She said it shouldn't be long after he gets there. Maybe a week or two. I feel 100 pounds lighter. (Ok, maybe not 100) Still so much to do!!

So... Topic of the night. Finding that flame that lights your butt on fire. I have so many dreams and ambitions. For the most part, if I put my mind to it I will accomplish it. I wanted to lose 20 lbs... I just reached my goal. I want to get my degree before my little brother finishes high school which is next may... and so far, working my butt off NON-STOP I will succeed. Just by a month or two, but I will beat him!! (It's the little things in life) haha I want to be a better person in my marriage. Now this one... I haven't been able to personally excel at yet. I feel like I have the education and the knowledge, but I am not sure how to fully apply the things that I have learned. (And yes, Love is enough... and boy do we have love... there are just other things that I want to work on as a spouse) There are so many inspirational books out there. "For Her" and "For Him" are an awesome read! They are two different books, of course one for him and one for her... lol... but they are worth it. I also bought 3 other books that I want to read and share with you. Knowledge is power. Learn what you can but most importantly, apply it. I have learned that men would rather be respected than loved. It's the complete opposite for women. (Go figure) They go hand in hand. In one of my classes I just finished we had to completly put ourselves in the chair. We had to open up and pull out the dirt we had in order to feel what your client will someday feel. I poured my heart out. I was so honest that at times I felt embarrassed. As people say... I aired my dirty laundry. Why? Because it encouraged me to change. When I re-read what I wrote, I could feel my emotions and struggles... as if it wasn't my paper I was reading. It was such a crazy feeling. At the end of the class you had to choose one student to write about... and I was very surprised to see two students wrote about me. Both commented on my honesty. That made me smile. If you want to be known for one thing... Honesty is pretty cool. One lady talked about how she looked forward to all my posts every week. That made me feel like I climbed a mountain. My words affected someone... inspired someone... intrigued someone. That my friends is a flame under my butt. I can't just write about it... I need to act upon what I say. I hope you enjoy this leg of the journey. Finding who I am, along with becoming the person I know I can be. Tomorrow I am going to start including parts of this book I am reading. 365 ways to start your day off positive. Together we can pass on a smile even further. Thanks for stopping in and reading. Here's to a positive Monday, and a great start to May!!

Lovin' me some sunshine!

What a wonderful Sunday! I got to spend time with my girlfriends at Amanda's "Summer Kickoff" party... Logan got to get in his new lil pool his grandma got him... James and I both got homework done... We also got an email from the Comannder in Korea stating why it was better for Logan and I to come over after James. That's all we wanted... is an answer to our questions and we got them. She said it shouldn't be long after he gets there. Maybe a week or two. I feel 100 pounds lighter. (Ok, maybe not 100) Still so much to do!!

So... Topic of the night. Finding that flame that lights your butt on fire. I have so many dreams and ambitions. For the most part, if I put my mind to it I will accomplish it. I wanted to lose 20 lbs... I just reached my goal. I want to get my degree before my little brother finishes high school which is next may... and so far, working my butt off NON-STOP I will succeed. Just by a month or two, but I will beat him!! (It's the little things in life) haha I want to be a better person in my marriage. Now this one... I haven't been able to personally excel at yet. I feel like I have the education and the knowledge, but I am not sure how to fully apply the things that I have learned. (And yes, Love is enough... and boy do we have love... there are just other things that I want to work on as a spouse) There are so many inspirational books out there. "For Her" and "For Him" are an awesome read! They are two different books, of course one for him and one for her... lol... but they are worth it. I also bought 3 other books that I want to read and share with you. Knowledge is power. Learn what you can but most importantly, apply it. I have learned that men would rather be respected than loved. It's the complete opposite for women. (Go figure) They go hand in hand. In one of my classes I just finished we had to completly put ourselves in the chair. We had to open up and pull out the dirt we had in order to feel what your client will someday feel. I poured my heart out. I was so honest that at times I felt embarrassed. As people say... I aired my dirty laundry. Why? Because it encouraged me to change. When I re-read what I wrote, I could feel my emotions and struggles... as if it wasn't my paper I was reading. It was such a crazy feeling. At the end of the class you had to choose one student to write about... and I was very surprised to see two students wrote about me. Both commented on my honesty. That made me smile. If you want to be known for one thing... Honesty is pretty cool. One lady talked about how she looked forward to all my posts every week. That made me feel like I climbed a mountain. My words affected someone... inspired someone... intrigued someone. That my friends is a flame under my butt. I can't just write about it... I need to act upon what I say. I hope you enjoy this leg of the journey. Finding who I am, along with becoming the person I know I can be. Tomorrow I am going to start including parts of this book I am reading. 365 ways to start your day off positive. Together we can pass on a smile even further. Thanks for stopping in and reading. Here's to a positive Monday, and a great start to May!!

Will this countdown ever end?

Wow... I was thinking I forgot how to log in again! It has been super crazy and I have been working my butt off trying to finish up a class and start 3 more. I will say that I am offiicially half way done with my associates... And I started last July 09 with ZERO!! Woo Hoo! Anyways, I have also been extremely busy with the farmville co-ops. Just sayin' :) I like to keep things honest.



Tonight my thoughts are going to be about leaving. Here it is... 4 days away that we should be leaving the country. Monday we finally got our orders issued... only to find out that they put down Logan and I deferred travel. Which means we can't go with James and we have to wait until June 25th to move there. I really don't know how this happens considering the lady who handles the orders and issues them told James the best choice was to get a 30 day deferrment inorder to travel together. Well... why would they tell him that AND not to mention grant him one only to laugh and say "too bad, so sad." So now, James will have to venture to a new country alone... (And he is perfectly fine doing so, but I know he will be worried about us.) This is where I need to just step up to the plate and make it happen. My husband did his best, and by that I mean calling anyone and everyone, writing emails in the middle of the night since Korea is 14 hours ahead, I mean everyday he was fighting a battle. Not only with all the people that had their hands on our orders, but with me too. I didn't give that man enough credit. He serious would not take No for an answer. Probably because he knew I would be more of a pain to deal with. I have this little problem... I am super spoiled and very selfish. I didn't think about him and the stress he was under, just mine. Oh poor me... moving across the world, leaving my family, traveling alone with a 15 month old... He is leaving his family too... and moving just as far... oh and will have to be in the field for weeks at a time. I don't understand why I couldn't take a step back and focus on what was truly important. We get to go and be together. Period.

I'm not mad... I was frustrated for a little while, and even sad. But at the end of the day, it will all be ok and work out the way God wanted it to. At least James gets to go find a house for us now. The only stress Logan and I will have is making it through that flight. If any of you know Logan... he is stubborn, and vocal. He loves to get his way (sounds too familiar) and nothing really will stop him. He doesn't sit for more then a few minutes because now that he has found his feet he is ready to conquer the world. I don't blame him. Usually I have to take a valium or something to calm my nerves while flying, but this time... God will be more than enough to calm my anxiety.

More to write tomorrow... Goodnight to all. And I hope that this coming week will be filled with more laughs than tears. (In my book)

Will this countdown ever end?

Wow... I was thinking I forgot how to log in again! It has been super crazy and I have been working my butt off trying to finish up a class and start 3 more. I will say that I am offiicially half way done with my associates... And I started last July 09 with ZERO!! Woo Hoo! Anyways, I have also been extremely busy with the farmville co-ops. Just sayin' :) I like to keep things honest.



Tonight my thoughts are going to be about leaving. Here it is... 4 days away that we should be leaving the country. Monday we finally got our orders issued... only to find out that they put down Logan and I deferred travel. Which means we can't go with James and we have to wait until June 25th to move there. I really don't know how this happens considering the lady who handles the orders and issues them told James the best choice was to get a 30 day deferrment inorder to travel together. Well... why would they tell him that AND not to mention grant him one only to laugh and say "too bad, so sad." So now, James will have to venture to a new country alone... (And he is perfectly fine doing so, but I know he will be worried about us.) This is where I need to just step up to the plate and make it happen. My husband did his best, and by that I mean calling anyone and everyone, writing emails in the middle of the night since Korea is 14 hours ahead, I mean everyday he was fighting a battle. Not only with all the people that had their hands on our orders, but with me too. I didn't give that man enough credit. He serious would not take No for an answer. Probably because he knew I would be more of a pain to deal with. I have this little problem... I am super spoiled and very selfish. I didn't think about him and the stress he was under, just mine. Oh poor me... moving across the world, leaving my family, traveling alone with a 15 month old... He is leaving his family too... and moving just as far... oh and will have to be in the field for weeks at a time. I don't understand why I couldn't take a step back and focus on what was truly important. We get to go and be together. Period.

I'm not mad... I was frustrated for a little while, and even sad. But at the end of the day, it will all be ok and work out the way God wanted it to. At least James gets to go find a house for us now. The only stress Logan and I will have is making it through that flight. If any of you know Logan... he is stubborn, and vocal. He loves to get his way (sounds too familiar) and nothing really will stop him. He doesn't sit for more then a few minutes because now that he has found his feet he is ready to conquer the world. I don't blame him. Usually I have to take a valium or something to calm my nerves while flying, but this time... God will be more than enough to calm my anxiety.

More to write tomorrow... Goodnight to all. And I hope that this coming week will be filled with more laughs than tears. (In my book)

I found a way to help change the world... One day at a time!

Ok... I think this is my life's mission. I get so excited when I talk about changing the world :) (And to all the Obama followers... {I am not one}, I don't mean the "Change" he often spoke of) My husband has been into this website he just found... I mean kind of like my attention I give to facebook. Last night he brought me into his circle... Little did I know how that even though he makes fun of me for hugging trees, he secretly does too!! It's http://www.care2.com/ and it is simply amazing! If you follow me... then you should take one step farther (I know I am a little greedy) and check this site out. You get points for searching the web, you get points for blogging, you get points for signing petitions.... Butterfly Points. Then you are wondering what you get to do with your points?? Donate them... plant a tree, rent a mosquito net for a week for a child, send fresh water.... CHANGE THE WORLD people! And for one second... and I am being serious... only ONE second did I think to myself that I hope this site is really holding up to their end of the bargain. But then I stopped mid-thought. I will not sit here and think negatively. I believe in them, and I still believe in people. That there is more good then bad in this world. That site is like a Tree-Huggers Facebook... Pretty cool and if you know me then you would agree that it's right up my alley.

On an even better note... Life is good. I hope as you read my blog each night that you will be able to see a change in me. I want to inspire! I have 10 uppercase living expressions that say "INSPIRE" if anyone would like to walk in that path... send me a message on your favorite cause and why it is important to you. Maybe I can help make a difference right beside you! You can put the decal on your walls, car, fridge, bathroom mirror as a daily reminder... Anywhere that might help you to create your path.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." Eleanor Roosevelt

No matter what your cause is, or how far you feel your dream is... I see beauty in trying your best! Thank you for reading. 13 followers is amazing to me! I never even thought I would get 10...

I found a way to help change the world... One day at a time!

Ok... I think this is my life's mission. I get so excited when I talk about changing the world :) (And to all the Obama followers... {I am not one}, I don't mean the "Change" he often spoke of) My husband has been into this website he just found... I mean kind of like my attention I give to facebook. Last night he brought me into his circle... Little did I know how that even though he makes fun of me for hugging trees, he secretly does too!! It's http://www.care2.com/ and it is simply amazing! If you follow me... then you should take one step farther (I know I am a little greedy) and check this site out. You get points for searching the web, you get points for blogging, you get points for signing petitions.... Butterfly Points. Then you are wondering what you get to do with your points?? Donate them... plant a tree, rent a mosquito net for a week for a child, send fresh water.... CHANGE THE WORLD people! And for one second... and I am being serious... only ONE second did I think to myself that I hope this site is really holding up to their end of the bargain. But then I stopped mid-thought. I will not sit here and think negatively. I believe in them, and I still believe in people. That there is more good then bad in this world. That site is like a Tree-Huggers Facebook... Pretty cool and if you know me then you would agree that it's right up my alley.

On an even better note... Life is good. I hope as you read my blog each night that you will be able to see a change in me. I want to inspire! I have 10 uppercase living expressions that say "INSPIRE" if anyone would like to walk in that path... send me a message on your favorite cause and why it is important to you. Maybe I can help make a difference right beside you! You can put the decal on your walls, car, fridge, bathroom mirror as a daily reminder... Anywhere that might help you to create your path.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." Eleanor Roosevelt

No matter what your cause is, or how far you feel your dream is... I see beauty in trying your best! Thank you for reading. 13 followers is amazing to me! I never even thought I would get 10...

When Life Gives You Lemons... Be Thankful You Got Anything At All!

Sorry to by MIA for a few days! I haven't wanted to bore people and write about the CRAP going on right now... so I just took a few days off. Still no official orders to Korea... which means again they have us hanging on by our seats. Logan is cutting 7 teeth, including his molars (which is a little early for the poor little guy), and had a fever for the FIRST time in his life. He actually cried non-stop all day. Pretty miserable for the whole household. James and I like to wait until the last second to work on our weekly homework... which translates to frustration between the two of us... who gets to watch Logan while the other does their homework first. I missed my two favorite shows in the world Thursday and tonight. The list goes on forever... and the party aLwAyS ends. (That song lies)

Anywho... I enjoyed the rain today. Made me think that God was washing away my yucky mood and my not so fun past couple of days. Tomorrow is a new week and I am ready to tackle the world and write some new exciting blogs. I think tonight's topic should be exercising.

James and I started exercising and eating crazy healthy. When I use the term crazy... I mean one gram of fat per day!!! (Not per meal) Sounds hard, but it isn't too bad. We were going the gym every night and so on. I lost 20 lbs. Woo Hoo!! And then... He started slipping off, which made me not to be a crazy eater by myself... so I joined the bandwagon again! I haven't gained any weight back, BUT I have gotten a Blizzard from Dairy Queen. It was pretty fantastic, BUT I felt like I was fighting a locked up eating disorder. It took everything in me to eat a small one. It was truly a battle. I didn't enjoy it like I wanted to, it hurt my stomach, and made me feel so guilty! I actually like eating healthy. I will go as far to say I like eating crazy healthy. My hubby says he will get back to it tomorrow... which means I will too BUT I don't like the fact that I caved. I am not trying to lose a million pounds, just a few and then remain stable. Exercising is one of those things that if you don't have it in your life you don't feel as if you are missing out on a thing... BUT when you do have it you can't believe you went so long without it. It is actually quite simple to incorporate it into your schedule. I know you are thinking... "yeah, for a stay at home mom" but really there are so many little things. I always park toward the back of parking lots... further for me to walk and Logan to ride. Logan L.O.V.E.S going on walks... So I tell myself it is for him, but it is secretly for me too!

I think I didn't have a great week... because there wasn't much exercise, AND I ate that blizzard. I knew I should have just said no to drugs!! (Drugs = ice cream + no exercise... not the illegal ones)

Ok friends, this is me saying this is a new week~ Make something happen!! :) Goodnight... Tomorrow will be here before your alarm clocks are singing!!!

When Life Gives You Lemons... Be Thankful You Got Anything At All!

Sorry to by MIA for a few days! I haven't wanted to bore people and write about the CRAP going on right now... so I just took a few days off. Still no official orders to Korea... which means again they have us hanging on by our seats. Logan is cutting 7 teeth, including his molars (which is a little early for the poor little guy), and had a fever for the FIRST time in his life. He actually cried non-stop all day. Pretty miserable for the whole household. James and I like to wait until the last second to work on our weekly homework... which translates to frustration between the two of us... who gets to watch Logan while the other does their homework first. I missed my two favorite shows in the world Thursday and tonight. The list goes on forever... and the party aLwAyS ends. (That song lies)

Anywho... I enjoyed the rain today. Made me think that God was washing away my yucky mood and my not so fun past couple of days. Tomorrow is a new week and I am ready to tackle the world and write some new exciting blogs. I think tonight's topic should be exercising.

James and I started exercising and eating crazy healthy. When I use the term crazy... I mean one gram of fat per day!!! (Not per meal) Sounds hard, but it isn't too bad. We were going the gym every night and so on. I lost 20 lbs. Woo Hoo!! And then... He started slipping off, which made me not to be a crazy eater by myself... so I joined the bandwagon again! I haven't gained any weight back, BUT I have gotten a Blizzard from Dairy Queen. It was pretty fantastic, BUT I felt like I was fighting a locked up eating disorder. It took everything in me to eat a small one. It was truly a battle. I didn't enjoy it like I wanted to, it hurt my stomach, and made me feel so guilty! I actually like eating healthy. I will go as far to say I like eating crazy healthy. My hubby says he will get back to it tomorrow... which means I will too BUT I don't like the fact that I caved. I am not trying to lose a million pounds, just a few and then remain stable. Exercising is one of those things that if you don't have it in your life you don't feel as if you are missing out on a thing... BUT when you do have it you can't believe you went so long without it. It is actually quite simple to incorporate it into your schedule. I know you are thinking... "yeah, for a stay at home mom" but really there are so many little things. I always park toward the back of parking lots... further for me to walk and Logan to ride. Logan L.O.V.E.S going on walks... So I tell myself it is for him, but it is secretly for me too!

I think I didn't have a great week... because there wasn't much exercise, AND I ate that blizzard. I knew I should have just said no to drugs!! (Drugs = ice cream + no exercise... not the illegal ones)

Ok friends, this is me saying this is a new week~ Make something happen!! :) Goodnight... Tomorrow will be here before your alarm clocks are singing!!!

Freedom of Speech... That's me!

I know you all could guess what I was going to write about tonight. Truthfully I wanted so bad to write about something fun and uplifting... but my insides are shaking... and there are no earthquakes in Texas.

I can not believe this whole ordeal about that so called church (which makes me cringe to even refer to it as that) is getting away with. Protesting at funerals of fallen soldiers? It's a right they are entitled to? Seriously? This might be a long post... so let me just say now that you have officially been warned. I want to be able to get a few hours of sleep tonight, and be doing so... I need to vent some anger and hurt feelings.

First off... I want to say where the heck is child protective services? These people are bringing their children to these types of protests. Not only that, but they are using slander along with other hateful acts. They children videoed are all wearing shirts that say "God hates you." So this is a safe environment for children to grow up in? What about angry people who retaliate against this group? Read their stats. The church as already been bombed. I would like to venture out and say that sounds to me like a very dangerous situation for children. Not to mention that they are being brainwashed to instill hate upon others, and justifying it as an act of God. Maybe I should call and voice my concern. If you know me... I will call. If there is one thing in life that I stand for it is NOT endangering a child. If I see a baby in the car without a car seat... I write the license plate down and give the police a little ring-a-ding. A parent is a child's only advocate... and if they aren't responsible enough to fill that role, I will for them.

Second case of business... Freedom of speech. Not likely. I think this is the sorriest excuse for bending the law. My husband defends this country in order for you and me to have this right... and guess what... He, as a soldier is not entitled to his... Did you know that? Thankfully I am his wife and I will voice mine. :) These amendments were written a very very long time ago when acts like these didn't take place! So why is it now that something can't be done to make a new one? I would gladly step up to the plate and write a rough draft or two. There are lines that need to be drawn, and an example needs to be made. America will NOT tolerate this type of hateful behavior anymore. This group was quoted saying "Thank God for 9-11" and made cartoons about this tragic event. In my opinion this is just as bad at a terriost attack. They are attacking our nation, they are setting horrible examples of America and Christians. They are hurting peoples lives... and disrespecting so many things that this country was built on. We went to their website tonight and they have a schedule of their upcoming protests. I saw a high school on there that is VERY close to my little brothers house. Let me tell you... I was alomst on a plane! Protesting at a high school... again should be illegal. I am trying not to get fired up again...

Taking a moment to recollect :)

Ok... back on my mission... So where do I start? Who do I write? How do I make a change? I know that I am not the only person out there feeling this way... I know that there are probably many people writing letters... I want to go to bed at night knowing I did all I could to help the Snyder family win their case. I want to help make a difference in this terrible world of hate! I want to show then the correct way of voicing your "Freedom of Speech" and being a Christian. I want Logan to grow up without hate in his heart... and I want those children to do the same. Fallen Soldiers deserve to be laid down to rest... peacefully. And their families (as I mentioned before... the one's who are left to wait) should get the same respect.

Tonight... I'm going to Pray. I am going to ask God for the strength I need to let my anger out. I am going to Pray for those horrible people who have been mislead... And I am going to Pray for all the people who read this... because I have already made the first step in the right direction. I have shared with you this story. The rest... is God's will.

I hope tomorrow the sunshines bright for everyone. Even the people with shields of hate over their eyes... maybe a ray of sun will shine through to them. Goodnight my friends...

Freedom of Speech... That's me!

I know you all could guess what I was going to write about tonight. Truthfully I wanted so bad to write about something fun and uplifting... but my insides are shaking... and there are no earthquakes in Texas.

I can not believe this whole ordeal about that so called church (which makes me cringe to even refer to it as that) is getting away with. Protesting at funerals of fallen soldiers? It's a right they are entitled to? Seriously? This might be a long post... so let me just say now that you have officially been warned. I want to be able to get a few hours of sleep tonight, and be doing so... I need to vent some anger and hurt feelings.

First off... I want to say where the heck is child protective services? These people are bringing their children to these types of protests. Not only that, but they are using slander along with other hateful acts. They children videoed are all wearing shirts that say "God hates you." So this is a safe environment for children to grow up in? What about angry people who retaliate against this group? Read their stats. The church as already been bombed. I would like to venture out and say that sounds to me like a very dangerous situation for children. Not to mention that they are being brainwashed to instill hate upon others, and justifying it as an act of God. Maybe I should call and voice my concern. If you know me... I will call. If there is one thing in life that I stand for it is NOT endangering a child. If I see a baby in the car without a car seat... I write the license plate down and give the police a little ring-a-ding. A parent is a child's only advocate... and if they aren't responsible enough to fill that role, I will for them.

Second case of business... Freedom of speech. Not likely. I think this is the sorriest excuse for bending the law. My husband defends this country in order for you and me to have this right... and guess what... He, as a soldier is not entitled to his... Did you know that? Thankfully I am his wife and I will voice mine. :) These amendments were written a very very long time ago when acts like these didn't take place! So why is it now that something can't be done to make a new one? I would gladly step up to the plate and write a rough draft or two. There are lines that need to be drawn, and an example needs to be made. America will NOT tolerate this type of hateful behavior anymore. This group was quoted saying "Thank God for 9-11" and made cartoons about this tragic event. In my opinion this is just as bad at a terriost attack. They are attacking our nation, they are setting horrible examples of America and Christians. They are hurting peoples lives... and disrespecting so many things that this country was built on. We went to their website tonight and they have a schedule of their upcoming protests. I saw a high school on there that is VERY close to my little brothers house. Let me tell you... I was alomst on a plane! Protesting at a high school... again should be illegal. I am trying not to get fired up again...

Taking a moment to recollect :)

Ok... back on my mission... So where do I start? Who do I write? How do I make a change? I know that I am not the only person out there feeling this way... I know that there are probably many people writing letters... I want to go to bed at night knowing I did all I could to help the Snyder family win their case. I want to help make a difference in this terrible world of hate! I want to show then the correct way of voicing your "Freedom of Speech" and being a Christian. I want Logan to grow up without hate in his heart... and I want those children to do the same. Fallen Soldiers deserve to be laid down to rest... peacefully. And their families (as I mentioned before... the one's who are left to wait) should get the same respect.

Tonight... I'm going to Pray. I am going to ask God for the strength I need to let my anger out. I am going to Pray for those horrible people who have been mislead... And I am going to Pray for all the people who read this... because I have already made the first step in the right direction. I have shared with you this story. The rest... is God's will.

I hope tomorrow the sunshines bright for everyone. Even the people with shields of hate over their eyes... maybe a ray of sun will shine through to them. Goodnight my friends...

To bring, or not to bring... that is the question!

I am soooo exhausted!! This evening James and I went and tackled our storage. We needed to sort everything into two piles, that way when they come to get our stuff for Korea it would be ready. I, of course, want to bring everything!! I would rather be safe than sorry! Today I actually was able to part with a lot of things that I first had insisted on bringing. All my favorite dust collectors... are staying. I didn't know how much my willowtree figures and collection of glass hearts meant to me until I had to say bye for the nest two years. I decided I am going to do one more craft show before we leave and all my hand-painted original paintings are going to be sold at a pretty cheap price. I just don't think people are in the markey for handmade things anymore. You truly don't get paid for your time, but at least I can pass on a part of me to someone who buys my art. You don't know how much you hold on to until you are moving... Makes me feel like I have hoarder tendencies... haha. (Ok not that extreme) I didn't realize when we were moving out of our other house in july that I needed to keep a dollarstore mop and two dog food scoops! We did decide to bring a few decorations for christmas, and the rest of the holidays will be left in storage. My biggest fear is Logan missing out on tradition... but I guess we will just make the best out of it, and if need be... My mom can dress up like the Easter bunny and make a surprise visit! :) I think it will all work out.

The pictures I have been seeing on people's facebook are pretty exciting. They have an Outback Steak House... interesting! :) They also have this asian-ized walmart called Lotte Mart. It is 3 or 4 stories high, and you can do your regular shopping there, huge bags of rice, rice cookers, toys, Asian beer, your typical things :) It has flat escalators so you can bring your cart up with you to the next level. Pretty smart thinkin' if you ask me! I will be posting so many pictures. I have met some really nice wives over there thanks to facebook. Makes me feel better about going over there if I know I will be able to make some new friends... and Logan too. The countdown begins again... this time... is it.

This week is filled with doctor appointments for Logan and I. Also homework (on top of everything I started 3 more classes-what I was thinking... I don't know) and buying a few things people have recommended I bring since it isn't at the PX. We got a Magic Jack, so we will actually have a local texas number... so if anyone wants to call you can :) Just remember there is a 14 hour time difference! lol

I'm going to snuggle with my sleeping soldier! Good night to all... Tomorrow should be Thankful Tuesday... everyone can post something they are thankful for on here or facebook!