Finally got moved in. I kept saying to my self once I move into the new apartment I am going to get out of the house everyday! I did escape from my homebody tendencies once or twice this week! The apartment is awesome! So much better than the first place we moved into. I love this... and it is already starting to feel like home! Our stuff won't be here until September 13th. Seems like so far away from now. Just more waiting... Soon this house will be turned into our home. It will be like Christmas when everything gets here.
Speaking of waiting... I feel like I wait around a lot. I wait for my deadlines with school... I wait for Logan to get up from nap so I can run errands... I'm always waiting for James to come home... waiting on the water to warm up before I hop in the shower... Wait for the clothes to dry... Or waiting for the storm to pass. I think I need to stop waiting and just get the heck out! I feel guilty going out and doing things without James, because that has been our thing the whole time we have been together. We do everything together! I hate to get out and explore Korea without him, but then again they keep him very busy at work! It's not his fault, and I know he would rather be going out exploring with Logan and I... but it doesn't work like that here.
The one way to not get cabin fever or homesick is to get and and make the time spent in this new country count. I love it here, no complaints from me! I just need to get out and about more. Logan is at the age where it's a little tough. The public temper tantrums aren't really my thing. I am trying my best to get him to understand, or maybe even listen a little, but he is not having it. It makes for a very long train ride... or day! He just wants to test his boundaires I guess... over and over and over and over. This is one tired momma! Now that we are finally settled... after over a year of stressful moves, and stays... I am hoping I can start getting our lives back on track.
It felt good to just take a deep breath tonight. To close my eyes and lay my head back... and breathe. Every situation is what you make of it. I am the only person who can make me happy. :) Logan and James help, but the ending factor is me. I am happy. This part in my life, I couldn't been happier. It feels so good to know that I made the best choice for my family... and for me.
"It's not about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about getting out and dancing in the rain."
Tomorrow... I am going to not sit at home. I am going to fly on the wings of adventure. See where my journey leads me. I will write again tomorrow.
Life after us. This is my everyday life as a tattooed momma of 3, most favorite daughter, craziest sister, an aunt 10 times, and a dreamer… I am a memory hoarder, volunteer, impatient believer, and a beer drinker. My favorite thing to do is sleep. We live in a tiny home, we eat McDonald’s and I dream of life without folding laundry. Almost divorced. Follow me on this new journey after us... and finding myself, again.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Moved Again... But the wait continues....
Trying to understand my place in this life. Knowing it's my temporary home makes me rethink the way I have treated some people. I try to have a heart of gold, but at the same time I have an inner struggle of peace. I am determined to change the world. Cupcakes with beer.... the struggle is real.
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