Never enough time. Ever.

I have been SO exhausted in the evenings. Around 6 pm, I start counting down until bedtime. All I want to do is drink a glass of wine and not hear the word "mom" for about 30 seconds. Is that too much to ask?

I found myself telling my 5 year old I was changing my name. He innocently replied "What are you changing it to? Mallory?" Nicely played son.

As a mom, you find yourself experiencing such strong exhaustion at the EXACT same time you're feeling extreme love and fulfillment. There are so many things that I want to complete in a 24 hour period that just don't get done the entire year. Sitting down to blog is one of them. Crafting... Is that a thing of the past? Ooohhhh How about reading a book? Can't tell you the last time I did that. I hate to admit it, but I haven't even read "50 Shades of Grey." Gasp.... I know!

How mom's find time... I don't know.

As soon as I get done with dinner, baths, brushing teeth, and putting each kid to bed I just want to sit on my 8 months pregnant butt and watch trashy TV. (I DVR'd The Bachelorette tonight!) Oh, but before then I am tucking Logan in for the 30th time. He needed one more kiss. One more snuggle. One more.... anything he could think of to NOT go to bed.

You know what? He is going to stop wanting that "one more" kiss. He is. Kora will eventually brush her own teeth. It happens.

Life keeps going no matter how much sleep you miss. How much you don't complete in your 24 hour day. It never stops.

As exhausted as I am... I am bursting at the seams with love. With gratitude. How in the world did I get picked to be their momma is beyond me! I'm so blessed that I welcome these yawns.

Being a mom is the most amazing experience I have ever had. I really don't know what purpose I had before them.

My kids make me scream, cry, laugh, be silly, worry, learn, strive to be better than I was the day before.

They complete me.

I know once Sadie gets here, I'll be even more tired. I have no idea how I am emotionally or physically going to be able to take care of THREE... but I will.

Have I mentioned that it's almost 2 am and I still have stuff to do before Monday's sunshine bursts through the windows? 

It will wait. My kid's childhood won't.

 

Did I mention that we decided TODAY we were going to move to a smaller house? Not only that but we found a home hours after deciding we were going to look... and BAM. We sign the lease tomorrow. That's a blog for another day.

 

Goodnight Y'all.